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I wrote this in 2007.  Its as though I've changed a lot without changing a bit.

in every way i am just.. jessy. i'm jessy. a yin yang of clumbsy elegance. just. jess. im a lover. a connector. my energy is amplified by the freedom to the both of those and also the ability to appreciate the people i love and connect with. i live to connect. and nothing else. just as long as it is true to me. i am an old painting; you'll damage my skin with your bright lights and snapshots. let me be to remember who i am, who i once was-- before i must face who i might become. i dont think i am necessarily discovering who i am; but discovering how to expose myself to other people. love me. intrigue me. be intrigued by me. and just. live. im in desperation for a life that exists.. that feels-- a culture that exists.. that feels.. is happy without direct stimulation and instant gratification. i am so in love with my sunset, consisting solely of brilliant block shadows of buildings upon buildings ♥ i fear fate might have me to be ill for eternity; it keeps me humble if nothing else.

it starts

with me
♥